missing is temporary, love is forever

i sincerely apologize for my temporary breakdown in my last entry. and thank you for all those sweet words to calm me down.

i absolutely love it here in china, i want there to be no misunderstanding about that. but there are also moments when i am completely exhausted by all the new impressions and experiences it gives me. and because i don't have a real home to go to, to straighten my thoughts, to rest my head, they sometimes get the best of me. there are moments when i feel utterly alone in this humungous city. i just want to convey my feelings as true as possible, i don't feel like lying about them.

now, to a more cheerful subject. in the last week, two of my uncles came to beijing. it was nice to have some family here. i went to dinner with them both and thursday i went to 798 with tong and my mothers brother tiong. at 798 there used to be a factory but it has now been turned into a contemporary art district. it's a great location where you can not only find any well known chinese artist but also your regular andy warhol. the little streets are filled with smaller and larger galleries, restaurants and cafés. you could roam through them for days if you wanted. it was great fun.

today is saturday, i don't know what i'm going to do yet. a greyish fog is settling over beijing again. there are times when you can look straight into te sun without hurting your eyes...

first song of the day: 'modern guilt' by beck

xxx lucia

*special thanx to fby 'cause i kinda stole his line